Suffering since 6 years of age......

I am in mid 30’s and bad breath is a constant in my life. It smells like crap 24/7!! I smell it all the time and am aware of how it smells and it controls all aspects of my life and yet it is a secret. I can never talk about it with friends, other family members etc. I have mentioned it to only doctors who did a few tests and I even went to an oral pathologist who have basically told me it is in my head and had a few dentist look at me like I am disgusting!
I remember the exact moment I smelled something weird and tasted something awful in my mouth at 6 years old and it has been downhill since then. Of the cruel things I have endured in grade school are:
Why don’t you flush your throat and this kid made a toilet flushing sound
Kids would come up to me and just tell me you stink
Others would tell me go buy a toothbrush
Other times when kids used to come and talk to me, I would nod my head yes or no or mutter while facing other way or fiddle with things so that I don’t have to make eye contact.
As an adult, I am offered mints or chewing gum everywhere I go and once this happens it shuts me down. This happens at work and I always feel that my co-workers are looking at me funny or that they are all talking about me and my horrid smell…..I just want to leave and get back home.
I hate being at clubs or parties where there is music and I know I have to speak over the music so I cant do that thing I do where I breathe through my nose in short breaths while holding water or something else in my hand and sipping from it or taking bites out of finger foods. I guess I am just hoping the smell that comes out is of the drink or food if anything. If there is no food or drinks there I am in the bathroom brushing my teeth and tongue with Therabreath (which really doesn’t work) and chewing gum and I repeat this a few times a night.
I am married to an attractive man who loves me and I told him my problem and I know it is not in my head because he has verified that there is a smell, but I have pecked him a few time (never open mouth kissed him) and even when we are intimate, I usually face the other way. How sad is that??? Sometimes I wonder why he even stays with me.
I feel cursed and before he came along I wanted to kill myself because I knew that the guys I was meeting were aware of the problem and they would back away from a relationship from me. I never feel like myself because I always have to live my life being aware of the bb and how to avoid someone from smelling it!
The worst part is knowing that I never lived to my full potential because I always think twice before I speak to someone and do tend to walk away when people get too close. I also never wanted to do the things I wanted to do, work in fashion etc because I always felt that if I had to around people I could not hold up the façade too long.
Like someone else mentioned I also saw a therapist and spent all this money telling her everything but the core of my self esteem issues which are all bb related.
I stopped seeing her because I knew like all the other doctors I had seen before she may just tell me its in my head and that would negate all the things I had already disclosed to her about my life…I hate seeing other people speak all close to others and I know that can never be me. I am just bummed out and soooooo happy I found this site because I know its not in my head, its real and maybe one day before I get old I will be able to live my life the way other people do.