Hali Dream
My Dad was there . He was trying his best to help , having the same old ideas about brushing and that ,wasnt much help but very emotionally supportive though . The whole day I was basically begging for answers or help with my bb at this place for school or work or wutever it was. No nurses or doctors helped . As the dream went on ,more people knew that the stink was coming from me , I started to get that sick paranoid feeling . Like asking for sympathy or help but people are to afraid to come near because they don't want to be associated with one so gross i guess. In the end of the dream ,Some older wiser people had put on paper masks .When I looked around ,everybody was wearing them =/ . I wanted to cry, it was like the only way to fix it in everyones mind . The only solution ? I kept my mouth closed and had to humble if someone asked my anything .
I woke up feeling so bad and anxious . I often have had Zombie themed dreams since childhood, this was really no exception but More based on reality and not really abstract.
I've been back on the high raw fruit diet ,and i know it helps at least a bit. I really just want at least 1 person that I can be honest with about this BB,that will 4uk!ng be honest with me too. I understand how its hard for a person to be put in that spot though ,but its So Much harder for us to be in limbo about whats is really going on with out BB.
Its worse than the bb itself to not know and Worry. Someone could make a Billion dollar to invent a Real working pocket halimeter . We would finally know what works or doesn't . Meantime ,we worry that others smell us.











