Bad Breath Diary November 2005
9. NOVEMBER 2005 - DIARY START
Ok, I am beginning to write this diary to explain what people with bad breath or halitosis are going thru. I have bad breath for many years. This awful curse began when i was around 14, now I am already 30. Half of my life I am battling with this disease. It destroyed my life. Bad breath is becoming worse and worse, I tried a lot of things but none of them worked. I was just a little boy with perfect mouth hygiene, all my teeth were always healthy. But this curse just knocked me off my feet. Otherwise i was always healthy, I only had bad breath.
Bad breath is present all the time. 27 hours a day. I became slowly a loner, outsider. I feel the best when I am alone. I will start to write this diary so other can see our suffering, so they will raise heir butt and help us.
WE ARE SUFFERING A LOT.
I have trouble meeting girls, friends. Most of the time I am alone. I had few girls but now my breath became so bad that it is really hard to meet new girls. I do not have any friend. They have all left me. They can not bare with my breath. I am changing jobs all the time. People that i work with usually get sick of me very quick so i have to find new and new jobs very fast. When i walk in the street people touch their noses, cough, look at me strangely. It is not a pleasant experience I must say. I am having trouble how to survive, most of the time i am barely making for food and the rent.
My parents have become such assholes that i can not believe. They are ashamed of me, we do not have contact any more. We became strangers. At least they could understand that bad breath is not my fault, i have perfect teeth, brush them 4 times a day, use mouthwash, eat healthy.
I have done a lot of things during last few years to cure myself but i did not succeed. I failed, failed to the ground. I am on the edge with my nerves, always thinking about bb. People always remind me of my trouble. They cough, rub noses, offering me gums......
Doctors told me I am healthy, they say i should talk about it with therapist. I say *censored* YOU. I am sick of this shit they are putting me thru. I lost everything, my girlfriends left me or they became cycos.
Today I got nose rubs again. I tried some new stuff that is called colloidal silver. I dropped few drops in my nose yesterday and i felt better all day, I felt fresh in my mouth. I am sure that the problem lies in sinuses.
The story continues. I am going to watch a movie now. it is late.
12. NOVEMBER 2005
Nothing is new. I still use colloidal silver nasal dropper. I put one drop under my tongue and then into each nostril. I feel the crust are forming way up n my nose and they are slowly dropping down. I can not tell the bb is any better. I think it is not, but I feel stronger mentally. Again i got nose rubs in the store and in laundry. Also a lot of coughs. Then i just shut down and keep quiet. This is so strange.
Washing my clothes and keep thinking about bad breath. I am offensive to the people. Nobody wants to talk to me. It must be horrible for them, not for me, I can not smell myself.I hope the colloidal will help but at the same time i have big doubts. My condition is chronic and it is hard to become healthy. I think the bacterias have taken over my body, my immune system is broken and can not fight any more.
I think it is all in my mind, my bad experiences are making my bb going stronger and stronger. Another day without being happy and enjoy life.