Bad Breath Diary March 2007

Well still the same stuff going on. What can I tell you. I would suffer instead of all of you if you would be cured. I was so sad reading Succ diary. The boy suffered so much. I did also, I feel really related to him. You will always be my friend Succ. I really feel sorry for you. Jeez I am crying right now.

For many years I am trying to help people in many ways. First with alternative medicine. I have many websites teaching people how to lead a healthy lifestyle. I feel I have to do that.

Even if the people are mean to me.



I do not know if I should just go and meditate the rest of my life and totally change my life. Thre is no way worth living it that way. I feel I could do more if I would live among the monks and dedicate myself to my innerself. THe body is just the material that will decay after we die. And the sould will live. I am making also many mistakes because of other people. The are sometimes very mean to me. And I fight back. I can not just let go. They would crush me totally if I would let them.

I am figtng back and doing the same as they do to me. And I think I am crating bad karma that way. But I can not see any other way. Every human being is defending itself. It is a normal natural instinct.

I have read a while ago the theory aout us - people with bad breath. We are not the best specimens of our race. The normal natural process is that only the best survive so our fate is do dissapear and not to have children and give them our faulty genes.
We are some kind of outcasts and the human race does not need us looking thru the Darwin Theory. We will be expelled, with no kids. Few centuries ago they would probably hang us or burn us as witches. We can not tell.

I do not know what to do. How to choose a proper way of living.

I still find good thinks in live and I enoy it. Like listening to the music, driving a car, doing my business, talking to a beutiful girl ( really rare).

I am dedicating my life to you, to try to help you all.
Keep that in mind.