November 2007

So what is new. Nothing. I emtesting some health product with superb natural ingredients and I though that would help me, but it seems that *censored*ing bacterias have become straonger again.

*censored*ing hell. I am so dissapointed. I think that sadness has permanently become ongraved in my face. I am sad all the time. Nobody initiates a talk with me, and if I do it they soon go away. I tried so many things and they did not work.

I can not see anything else to try. It seems so funny that these bad bacterias are ruling our life. Like small Nazi dictators have our life in hands.

When I see families I always gets sad. It would be great to have kids, I mean that is probably the most beutiful moment of your life when your kids are small and you play with them, buythem toys etc. I know I enjoyed my childhood till this beast stiked me.

We are loosing so much happyness in this world. Other people are so hapilly interacting between eachother, talking, drinking, having sex.

Nothing here. I am alone most of the time. It takes so much energy to go out and try to meet somebody. I mean I have sucess with waitress someiems, but they can not run away so I am not sure if that counts.

What is there for us to do. I can not see the future. Halitomafia is selling a lot of stuff, Rosie the Monkey has mouthwshes all over Britain so he can support his awfull JEEZ MUSIC.

SO what is there to do. I can see only to lead a karma free life so I will have better chance in another life. But I will not remember this life so why bother.

I am 32, I am geting old it is time for family and I even dont hav a girlfriend.
Is there another disease that disables so much in a mans life. I mean Aisd does,.......

Hope you are doing well. Christmass is coming, most of us will be alone.

Remember lead a good life, that is all you can do. This disease is so strong, we tried everthing there is to try and nothing seems to work.