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Doing the worse ever

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Doing the worse ever

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I never let this probablem get to me as bad as now, but Im truly trying to find a job and no one will hire me. My car is broken down, I have no idea how Im going to get my two boys school clothes and I cannot get one person to call me back after an interview. Im trying so many things, thera breath probiotics, milk of mag, antacids, cell oxygen in water, gas pills, putting antifungal in nose and outside of nose. I dont taste bad breath but most of the time there is a seage coming out of my nose. People are getting more allergic to me with more and more reactions. Today I said something to my son and he coughed and said, "how come everyday my throat gets itchy and I cough" The last time I went to mmy docs she didnt take me seriously even though its clear she reacts to me right in my face.Before I would do childcare for my sister so I would make a little money that way but she lost her job. I feeel really helpless. Iv been crying all the time. for two years I worked on my degree and passed my exam to become certified. I know the only thing that is holding me back is this sewage smell/allergic problem. I have two exboyfriends and the first one is really open about my problem, we were like best friends when we were together so maybe that is why he doesnt deny it and actually tries to help me figure it out. Hes pretty sure it is a gas, but im not sure that explains why my mouth is always hot and sticky. I cannt live like this anymore, I dont want to. When I get my teeth cleaned the cleanliness only lasts a week. I cant go a day without brushing my tongue, if I do miss a day, its completely coated in the morning, and does not come off easily. My face is itchy and I think im becoming allergic to myself. Sometimes when I open my mouth to talk, I sneeze. I feel like a total failure and loser, a pure lifeless loser. My mom doesnt deny it anymore, she saw that my two nieces would sneeze whenever I talked to them. i cant go out to eat, I have only been on one date in about 6 years, I have no friends. I have a couple friends that try to accept me but I cant bare having them allergic to me so I ppush them away. im lonely, im scared for my life, i have sold my body in the past few months to have a little money. It hurts so bad. Even if a employer would call me back, Im deathly afraid of it, because i know my routine would only give me upto a half hour of normalcy. i suk onlemons before i go anywhere. I truly wonder what I did to deserve this. I hate myself. I never pictured this for me, I pictured happiness. Why wont my doc send me to GI specialist. WHen I ask her to test me for things why would she not do it and say "Im sure its not that" Maybe I should get a new doctor, maybe I should go to the emergency. Im lost. Im completetly lost in this hell. Just venting


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Post by StillHoping »

wow sorry to hear all this meowkitty.

But why don't you just chew gum during the job interview? This is what I have done in the past, and there's no way they would fire you after for having bb.
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Post by oneday4800 »

:-( Cold world huh. I feel bad for you more than myself. Maybe its because u have kids.idk. but have you tried going to some type of organization for their school clothes? Im sure you can find one.. instead of selling sex,maybe you can do webcams? Its more safe and legal.plus, no need to worry about then smelling bb :-) Im not sure how well paying being a cam girl is but maybe worth looking into. I hope things get better for you.
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Post by Archimonde »

Meowkity, how many times do i have to tell you. You don't have BB symptoms, you don't have BB, you're on the wrong forum. I linked you the PATM forum before, i think you even went on there. Why are you back here?

Your family tells you that you don't smell, at least that's what you said before. I remember you saying that your sister swore to you that you don't have BB.

The sneezing \ coughing \ nose scratching reactions that you see from people around you are not caused by an odor. EVEN YOUR BF TOLD YOU, listen to him, he is right, it's from some kind of gaz or irritant that is odorless.

Sorry if i sounded rude, you needed a reality check.

You've convinced yourself that the coughing is caused by how you smell, a few other people on this forum thinks this way too. I wish you and these people would actually listen and believe what your friends\family\me are saying. YOU DON'T SMELL.

You do have a problem, google "people are allergic to me", there is forum on medhelp for people like you. Sadly, there is no cure yet for that PATM thing.
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Post by jane »

Sorry to hear that meowkity. Hang in there, we are with you. Try to remind yourself of your good qualities- even if you think bb has robbed you of them all.

And please, please, please treasure and take care of yourself and your body. I know that CH can make us feel like we're not worth anything so we may care less about our worth but that shouldn't be the case. In God's eyes, we are SO worthy. It's easy to forget this.

Try to link up with your ex bf that you said you are open with, maybe let him know you're going through an extremely tough time. Or anyone that you think will listen. Tell them that you need to talk.

Keep us updated.
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Post by meowkity1 »

Archimonde, I have been to the PATM forums. It sounds like me but I still cant forget that my bad breath started when a filling fell out and I did have tonsil stones. I thought I was doing quite well until a year later people began having allergic reactions to me. They weren't even reacting to me like that when I had stones or filling was out. I cant completely rule out bad breath aither. WHen I sneeze I sense sewage. I will try and do the web cam shows, because at this point Im losing my whole life. I just want someone to give me a chance. I just cant even fathom what I did to deserve this. There has to be something I did for me to have to live this way. I ordered some gentian violet to put on my gums and between teeth but it did not help. I went to the doctors and asked to be tested for excess gas in my blood, but she wouldnt. My 6 year old keeps saying "get a job mom". Because he sees that we cannot do things and I cannot buy them the things they need. I normally cope well, but its been hiting me lately and I cannot believe I did all of that school work and passed my state exam and I cannot do anything with it. The interviewers have abad allergic reactions to me, gum only makes the bad breath or gas travel farther and makes it stronger. Iv been reading into excess histamines and I hope I can lower my histamine and maybe that will help
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Re: Doing the worse ever

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meowkity1 wrote:I never let this probablem get to me as bad as now, but Im truly trying to find a job and no one will hire me. My car is broken down, I have no idea how Im going to get my two boys school clothes and I cannot get one person to call me back after an interview. Im trying so many things, thera breath probiotics, milk of mag, antacids, cell oxygen in water, gas pills, putting antifungal in nose and outside of nose. I dont taste bad breath but most of the time there is a seage coming out of my nose. People are getting more allergic to me with more and more reactions. Today I said something to my son and he coughed and said, "how come everyday my throat gets itchy and I cough" The last time I went to mmy docs she didnt take me seriously even though its clear she reacts to me right in my face.Before I would do childcare for my sister so I would make a little money that way but she lost her job. I feeel really helpless. Iv been crying all the time. for two years I worked on my degree and passed my exam to become certified. I know the only thing that is holding me back is this sewage smell/allergic problem. I have two exboyfriends and the first one is really open about my problem, we were like best friends when we were together so maybe that is why he doesnt deny it and actually tries to help me figure it out. Hes pretty sure it is a gas, but im not sure that explains why my mouth is always hot and sticky. I cannt live like this anymore, I dont want to. When I get my teeth cleaned the cleanliness only lasts a week. I cant go a day without brushing my tongue, if I do miss a day, its completely coated in the morning, and does not come off easily. My face is itchy and I think im becoming allergic to myself. Sometimes when I open my mouth to talk, I sneeze. I feel like a total failure and loser, a pure lifeless loser. My mom doesnt deny it anymore, she saw that my two nieces would sneeze whenever I talked to them. i cant go out to eat, I have only been on one date in about 6 years, I have no friends. I have a couple friends that try to accept me but I cant bare having them allergic to me so I ppush them away. im lonely, im scared for my life, i have sold my body in the past few months to have a little money. It hurts so bad. Even if a employer would call me back, Im deathly afraid of it, because i know my routine would only give me upto a half hour of normalcy. i suk onlemons before i go anywhere. I truly wonder what I did to deserve this. I hate myself. I never pictured this for me, I pictured happiness. Why wont my doc send me to GI specialist. WHen I ask her to test me for things why would she not do it and say "Im sure its not that" Maybe I should get a new doctor, maybe I should go to the emergency. Im lost. Im completetly lost in this hell. Just venting
Wow that is a horror story similar to mine. You need to focus on online working. You can work at home I am sure of. You can become content writer, that pays really well. Register on freelancer.com odesk.com and start working. Your english is perfect I presume.

You need to survive because of your kids. We should get a gov support. THis is just hell. ](*,)
This is me, Jimi Stein, I created this site in December 2005. Welcome.
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