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I was a very open and energetic child, got into all sorts of trouble and enjoyed life very much. Then all of a sudden at the age of 15 I started school in the autumn as usual, but something was different. I started noticing that the kids I sat next to started to show strange symptoms of "suffocating". It was always the same, the class would start and everything was fine, then after about 20 minutes I would see the kids next to me starting to get very tired, (which was always the first sign) then start to rest their head on their hand with elbow on table. And always in the next 10 minutes or so they would bury their heads on the table, between their hands and show signs of much discomfort. At first I thought they were just tired, but then started to see this happen all the time, not once could I sit next to anyone without this happening. And in a 30 kid class this always only happened next to me. Of course kids get tired in class and sometimes fall a sleep on their table, but this was different. I started isolating myself, always keeping an empty seat next to me. Over that distance it seemed to affect them less, but I still saw the symptoms. This really affected my personality and I became very shy and lonely. Then in high school I got new classmates and the same thing happened again. Kids would sit next to me unaware of the bad air that seemed to be emitting from me, they would always end up burying their head on the table, and not making the same mistake again sitting next to me.
My life since that has been a life of avoiding situations that makes me have to sit close to anyone. I dropped out of school because I just couldn't do this anymore. It has been such a emotional stress for me that I have become numb. I cant go to cinemas and even on airplanes unless I really have to. I don't have a girlfriend, because I wont let anyone get that close to me.
The smell or "bad air" seem to be very constant, I see it get a lot worse when I drink alcohol. I like going to clubs and dance, and girls who I dance with always run away after the first song (I'm not a bad dancer
). I work as a salesman and thankfully don't have oral bad breath, I see no symptoms when talking to people, and I do a lot of it in my job. But sitting next to them always ends the same. I though seem to develop very bad breath orally when drinking alcohol. I quickly get a white coating on my tongue and see people quickly turn away when I talk to them. And when partying with mates, we all eat the same, drink the same, but I'm the only one that seems to get that horrible breath. I don't even know how it smells, I have never smelled it myself, and I have a good hygiene. Nobody has ever told me that I have this condition, I'm a shy fragile guy and I think no one has the guts to tell me. But I have heard kids talking about "what was that smell, I cant go in there again"
Doctors don't seem to believe me, since they cant smell it when I see them, I cant ask them to sit next to me for 30-40 minutes to see for them selves. Some of them wanted to send me to psychiatrist, one removed my tonsils (that didn't help) one sent me to get upper endoscopy (everything was fine). They all seem to give up on me in the end, witch is bad because it takes me many months to sum up the courage to see them. I do suspect some fungal problems, because in my last doctors appointment he wanted to try strong antibacterial medicine, penicillin of some sort to see if that would heal me. I went very hopeful to a work gathering, eating pizza and drinking beer, that was 10 days after the penicillin and I had never seen such strong reactions to my breath as then. People reacted to me like I had soiled myself, it was clearly the worse it had ever been. Probably a mixture of the alcohol, yeast from the beer and pizza and the lacking of good bacteria in my colon after the penicillin. But my doctor thinks I'm crazy and wont even hear it, says I'm imagining this. I really need some proof, or a hint of what could be wrong with me, I don't have the confidence to argue with my doctor or ask my friends and family. What tests should I ask for? Is anyone suffering from the same thing here? Could it be parasites?
I really need to get on with my life, go to school and get a girlfriend, but a CAN'T do it while suffering from this.
Please anyone, help me change my life
