today has been rubbish

[:(]

I feel down, I keep thinking about stepping out infront of every car that goes past. I dont know what to do, I know its not my mouth or tongue or anything like that, the pong comes from the back of my mouth or my throat. I'm so scared abt where the future will take me. I cant live at home forever and realistically, who's gonna want to marry me? even my current boyfriend will figure out sooner or later that he cant take the bb, I really dont think my life is worth living past today

[exume]

don't kill yourself over bb and if you bf breaks up with you then find someone with bb another person with our problems will make us feel better.