Today was actually not too bad
Posted: Sat Mar 22, 2008 8:06 am
I mean I don't think my BB is going away anytime soon, if ever, but the fact that I have good days like today give me hope.
I was kind of depressed the whole first part of the day, you know, just the usual, "how will I face society today with atrocious BB?", but then I just kind of snapped out of it and decided to go see my friends. None of them seemed like they were reacting very much and my mouth tasted alright so I think there is actually a good chance it was pretty under control. I felt human, just conversing and laughing and being able to look someone eye to eye. I will never take that for granted again. Though, my breath may have well indeed been funky and they just don't mind anymore. Either way I made some connections with people on an intellectual level; made new friends with some people that happened to be there.
This boosted my confidence enough to where I was able to attend a party with my friends. It went really well most of the time, and I didn't see anyone reacting. I made a mistake and drank and smoked a little herb, which dried out my mouth super bad and summoned the BB demon. I think when I was getting ready to leave I walked into a room and some people gave me some funny looks and were talking about me, but its hard to say cause I usually don't smoke and I was paranoid. Either way I didn't let it get to me too much.
Guess this is just kind of a random ramble, but I think I was just trying to convey that I came up on top today, I won.
I was kind of depressed the whole first part of the day, you know, just the usual, "how will I face society today with atrocious BB?", but then I just kind of snapped out of it and decided to go see my friends. None of them seemed like they were reacting very much and my mouth tasted alright so I think there is actually a good chance it was pretty under control. I felt human, just conversing and laughing and being able to look someone eye to eye. I will never take that for granted again. Though, my breath may have well indeed been funky and they just don't mind anymore. Either way I made some connections with people on an intellectual level; made new friends with some people that happened to be there.
This boosted my confidence enough to where I was able to attend a party with my friends. It went really well most of the time, and I didn't see anyone reacting. I made a mistake and drank and smoked a little herb, which dried out my mouth super bad and summoned the BB demon. I think when I was getting ready to leave I walked into a room and some people gave me some funny looks and were talking about me, but its hard to say cause I usually don't smoke and I was paranoid. Either way I didn't let it get to me too much.
Guess this is just kind of a random ramble, but I think I was just trying to convey that I came up on top today, I won.
