hi i'm christy.
i'm 20 years old and i've had halitosis since year 7. it wasn't that bad back then, but as the years went by, the smell has just detoriated.
i just completed a year at university and i must say it's been the worst academic year of my life. halitosis has seriously taken over my entire life. in the first couple of weeks of my first semester, i tried my best to socialise and everything was going ok. i guess because people gave me the benefit of the doubt about my bad breath, probably thought it was temporary. but when i guess they realised it was a constant problem, i could tell that they were distancing themselves from me. not inviting me out with them or calling me. i just felt like such an outsider that i eventually gave up trying to contact them and confined myself to my room (luckily i got a single ensuite room in my halls so i can go for days without talking to anyone). it just became too painful to even try talking to them. i remember i would brush my teeth and tongue for about 40 minutes before going out to see them, but my breath still stank. so for most of my second semester, i've lived alone in my room, never talking to anyone, i've developed social phobia and been severely depressed, even having suicidal thoughts. i often don't look whether cars are coming when i cross the road, cause i just dont care. i wouldnt mind if my life ended today or tomorrow. if this is how my life is gonna be forever, then i'd rather just end it now instead of having to go through further rejection, depression and anxiety.
i just feel so sad. im missing so many great opportunities here at uni because of my halitosis. what pains me the most is that i used to be a very extroverted optimistic person, and halitosis has just ruined that part of my personality.
i really don't know how much more i can take. living like this. this isn't the life i was destined to lead. this sounds pretty bad, but i have already planned my death. i know i shouldn't be thinking like this, but sometimes i feel that that is the only way out. the doctors cant help, nor can the dentists. and to be honest, i'm tired. i'm tired of people thinking that i don't brush my teeth, that i'm dirty etc. it's emotionally draining to have halitosis constantly on my mind. i'm just tired. i want out.
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christyxxx
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Hi Christy,
I totally understand u because I'm also 20 and I go through all of that everyday. I sometimes feel like the world has stopped, n there's nothing to look forward to
. I remember how i used to get all A's in my classes, but my whole life is ruined because of this halitosis,
I was so excited about going to college and getting a good degree, but it now seems impossible.
but don't worry about other people, Maybe they just don't deserve you, instead of thinking why u don't have friends to spend time with, spend ur time studying, u never know maybe god wants u to get better grades n do good at school
My only advice at this time would be to try ur best at school, no matter what happens don't let ur grades go down, u'll finally find a cure with god's help, just have patience.
I totally understand u because I'm also 20 and I go through all of that everyday. I sometimes feel like the world has stopped, n there's nothing to look forward to
. I remember how i used to get all A's in my classes, but my whole life is ruined because of this halitosis, I was so excited about going to college and getting a good degree, but it now seems impossible.
but don't worry about other people, Maybe they just don't deserve you, instead of thinking why u don't have friends to spend time with, spend ur time studying, u never know maybe god wants u to get better grades n do good at school
My only advice at this time would be to try ur best at school, no matter what happens don't let ur grades go down, u'll finally find a cure with god's help, just have patience.
Hi christy,
I suggest you to try method suggested by Searching in the below post.
Just give a try...
viewtopic.php?t=2057
and try to do indulge in things which you like, which makes u feel better.
I suggest you to try method suggested by Searching in the below post.
Just give a try...
viewtopic.php?t=2057
and try to do indulge in things which you like, which makes u feel better.
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adventure_girl
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I cannot stress this enough but: PLEASE times a trillion, do not give up Christy.
I am not here to bombard you with any cliches or to go all preachy and lecturish on you with all different levels of bullcrap there can possibly be.
I'm here to simply say that I can truly relate with you. I'm also a very happy, adventurous and optimistic person, but halitosis has casued me so much pain, humiliation, and misery for so many years.
I feel that I have everything, but yet nothing at the same time, due to this halitosis problem. I have the ability and opportunity to have so many great experiences but I still won't be able to experience it to the full extent with pure joy, bliss and carefreeness without worrying and being embarrassed by this awful curse.
Many times, I secretly break down and yes I've had those bad "thoughts" too, but it is not worth it WHAT...SO...EVER. It may seem like we are escaping this endless nightmare which we can't seem to wake up from, but trust me it is not worth it. If I had chosen to end my life a year ago, I would have missed out on a great deal of priceless moments and experiences, that I would not ever had a chance to feel, indulge, learn and be enlightened from. (yes, I know that was really close to a cliche, but as you may already know many cliches are true).
If you find that brushing, scraping, flossing (the whole works) does not do anything for your breath, like for most of us. What I do that helps my breath prob, so I don't cause hazardous harm to my friends, classmates and society as a whole is:
-I usually eat a listerine strip first
-After that I would chew a gum that I find the most suitable for me (test around, certain gums better your breath, and some worsen)
-Whenever you go to the washroom, you can multi-task, when urinating in the stall, spit out you old gum, and eat another one if you don't want to seem like a crazy gum eating machine in front of people.
-You can also choose to bring a mini mouthwash which you can easily place in a makeup bag (possibly one that contains no alcohol, so it won't dry out your mouth) and swish around when you're in the stall (a tongue scraper is optional as well) which you can quickly do when in the stall or out in front of the sink if there's nobody in the washroom
-Remember to also drink a good amount of water
This will get you through the day, and when you have control over your breath, even with just a simple act as merely masking our halitosis, it definitely makes a huge difference. It will help you get back on your feet when you can maintain it at a good, tolerable degree while you find the main cause of your halitosis and seek solutions on how to cure the root of the problem.
I hope all goes well Christy, and for all fellow halitosis sufferers. There is more great things to come, please don't give up. I really mean that man.
I am not here to bombard you with any cliches or to go all preachy and lecturish on you with all different levels of bullcrap there can possibly be.
I'm here to simply say that I can truly relate with you. I'm also a very happy, adventurous and optimistic person, but halitosis has casued me so much pain, humiliation, and misery for so many years.
I feel that I have everything, but yet nothing at the same time, due to this halitosis problem. I have the ability and opportunity to have so many great experiences but I still won't be able to experience it to the full extent with pure joy, bliss and carefreeness without worrying and being embarrassed by this awful curse.
Many times, I secretly break down and yes I've had those bad "thoughts" too, but it is not worth it WHAT...SO...EVER. It may seem like we are escaping this endless nightmare which we can't seem to wake up from, but trust me it is not worth it. If I had chosen to end my life a year ago, I would have missed out on a great deal of priceless moments and experiences, that I would not ever had a chance to feel, indulge, learn and be enlightened from. (yes, I know that was really close to a cliche, but as you may already know many cliches are true).
If you find that brushing, scraping, flossing (the whole works) does not do anything for your breath, like for most of us. What I do that helps my breath prob, so I don't cause hazardous harm to my friends, classmates and society as a whole is:
-I usually eat a listerine strip first
-After that I would chew a gum that I find the most suitable for me (test around, certain gums better your breath, and some worsen)
-Whenever you go to the washroom, you can multi-task, when urinating in the stall, spit out you old gum, and eat another one if you don't want to seem like a crazy gum eating machine in front of people.
-You can also choose to bring a mini mouthwash which you can easily place in a makeup bag (possibly one that contains no alcohol, so it won't dry out your mouth) and swish around when you're in the stall (a tongue scraper is optional as well) which you can quickly do when in the stall or out in front of the sink if there's nobody in the washroom
-Remember to also drink a good amount of water
This will get you through the day, and when you have control over your breath, even with just a simple act as merely masking our halitosis, it definitely makes a huge difference. It will help you get back on your feet when you can maintain it at a good, tolerable degree while you find the main cause of your halitosis and seek solutions on how to cure the root of the problem.
I hope all goes well Christy, and for all fellow halitosis sufferers. There is more great things to come, please don't give up. I really mean that man.
Last edited by adventure_girl on Tue May 26, 2009 4:27 am, edited 1 time in total.
Hi Christy,
I totally understand where you're at, I've been there. I also had a plan to take my life because if my bb. But I realized something, I want to live and I refuse to let this take me out. I know this is hard, it has completely changed my life also. I really don't have any friends that want to hang out with me. They'll email me or call me, but no one wants to be around me. And work, no one speaks to me unless they have too.
So now I'm focused on what caused this. I'm turning my hurt and anger into finding out what's wrong with me. I'm not giving up and neither should you.
I know you said you've been to the doctors, try a different dr. It took me three tries to find the right ent who would give me all the necessary test to rule out that this was not a sinus problem. What about your gut, have you had that checked? What about candida. Check everything and check it again.
Don't you give up.
I totally understand where you're at, I've been there. I also had a plan to take my life because if my bb. But I realized something, I want to live and I refuse to let this take me out. I know this is hard, it has completely changed my life also. I really don't have any friends that want to hang out with me. They'll email me or call me, but no one wants to be around me. And work, no one speaks to me unless they have too.
So now I'm focused on what caused this. I'm turning my hurt and anger into finding out what's wrong with me. I'm not giving up and neither should you.
I know you said you've been to the doctors, try a different dr. It took me three tries to find the right ent who would give me all the necessary test to rule out that this was not a sinus problem. What about your gut, have you had that checked? What about candida. Check everything and check it again.
Don't you give up.
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halitosisux
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Hi christy,
Apart from trying to mask your BB, what things have you tried and managed to rule out?
Life with BB is a survival game. Its like walking a tightrope, but not knowing how long the rope goes on for. You have far more chance of reaching the end if you keep looking foward and concentrating on your steps rather than looking down and risk wobbling and falling off.
Apart from trying to mask your BB, what things have you tried and managed to rule out?
Life with BB is a survival game. Its like walking a tightrope, but not knowing how long the rope goes on for. You have far more chance of reaching the end if you keep looking foward and concentrating on your steps rather than looking down and risk wobbling and falling off.
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christyxxx
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thanks for your support!
thank you all for your support. i can't tell you how good it feels to know that i'm not alone living with this horrible thing. i don't know how you guys cope everyday. anyways, replies are below:
archimonde - yeah i'm living off campus next year but with a flatmate that i've only met once. my mom thought it would be a good idea to have a flatmate cause she knows i've been pretty down this semester. it's gonna be so hard trying to mask my bb all the time. in a way, i even feel sorry for her having to live with me next year. but we'll see how it goes. i may still have to spend an awful lot of time confined to my room just so i don't make her life a living hell.
halitosisux - i've tried dr. katz's kit, profresh, k-force, chlorhexidine, retardex, even oramd which was huge disappoint because i actually thought that last one was gonna work. i don't know what else is left to try? also, i've got good oral hygiene, sometimes brushing my teeth 4 times a day. so if you can recommend anything else, i'd be grateful. thanks.
thf - thanks for the advice. i'll try not to give up but its so hard. sadly, im going over to the usa to spend some time with my family so i wont be receiving free medical care til i get back to the uk in august, and we're not particularly rich. but maybe if they see how bad its affected me, they'll send me to a doctor over there.
adventure_girl - i too have had loads of amazing experiences but in the past couple of years the negatives have outweighed those positives. and its hard to think about the future being optimistic. this problem is surely going to affect my career prospects. i originally wanted to be a doctor, but had to turn that down when i realised the problem was a lot worse than i thought. then i wanted to work in events management but again, not possible because of all the talking you have to do. so i don't know. in my opinion, there arent many fun jobs out there for people with this problem. i wish i could interact with people normally. i feel like i have a lot to give. but i simply can't. Thanks for the tips though. I'm taking note. They sound like they would work for a while, which is a start.
Happylife - the things i used to enjoy in life included a fair bit of socialising and playing in team sports. and i cant really do them anymore. and thanks for the link. although, my oral hygiene is already pretty good. have you been cured?
wnaysha - i think you're right. i should spend more time studying. bb has really taken its toll on me this year so im pretty sure my grades have slipped. hopefully, i'll be able to catch up next year. but its hard to study when you feel so crap everyday. you cant really think of anything else other than your bb, the embarrassment, shame, and how everyone will hate you once you open your mouth, and no one wants to talk to you etc. i think i just need some more time to get used to the idea that i'll be living like this for a while.
archimonde - yeah i'm living off campus next year but with a flatmate that i've only met once. my mom thought it would be a good idea to have a flatmate cause she knows i've been pretty down this semester. it's gonna be so hard trying to mask my bb all the time. in a way, i even feel sorry for her having to live with me next year. but we'll see how it goes. i may still have to spend an awful lot of time confined to my room just so i don't make her life a living hell.
halitosisux - i've tried dr. katz's kit, profresh, k-force, chlorhexidine, retardex, even oramd which was huge disappoint because i actually thought that last one was gonna work. i don't know what else is left to try? also, i've got good oral hygiene, sometimes brushing my teeth 4 times a day. so if you can recommend anything else, i'd be grateful. thanks.
thf - thanks for the advice. i'll try not to give up but its so hard. sadly, im going over to the usa to spend some time with my family so i wont be receiving free medical care til i get back to the uk in august, and we're not particularly rich. but maybe if they see how bad its affected me, they'll send me to a doctor over there.
adventure_girl - i too have had loads of amazing experiences but in the past couple of years the negatives have outweighed those positives. and its hard to think about the future being optimistic. this problem is surely going to affect my career prospects. i originally wanted to be a doctor, but had to turn that down when i realised the problem was a lot worse than i thought. then i wanted to work in events management but again, not possible because of all the talking you have to do. so i don't know. in my opinion, there arent many fun jobs out there for people with this problem. i wish i could interact with people normally. i feel like i have a lot to give. but i simply can't. Thanks for the tips though. I'm taking note. They sound like they would work for a while, which is a start.
Happylife - the things i used to enjoy in life included a fair bit of socialising and playing in team sports. and i cant really do them anymore. and thanks for the link. although, my oral hygiene is already pretty good. have you been cured?
wnaysha - i think you're right. i should spend more time studying. bb has really taken its toll on me this year so im pretty sure my grades have slipped. hopefully, i'll be able to catch up next year. but its hard to study when you feel so crap everyday. you cant really think of anything else other than your bb, the embarrassment, shame, and how everyone will hate you once you open your mouth, and no one wants to talk to you etc. i think i just need some more time to get used to the idea that i'll be living like this for a while.
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Re: thanks for your support!
I'm not in your shoes so I can only speak for myself but i've had roomates before and it was a terrible idea! I didn't last more than 3 months with them. I'm very convinced that BB sufferers, at least serious cases, need their own space so when they come home from a stressful day, they can relax without thinking about their BB, which wasn't possible for me when i had roomates. When i moved out and got my own place, i was sooo much happier. I had 4 roomates tho, not just 1, they liked me but i just wasn't comfortable being around them all the time.christyxxx wrote:
archimonde - yeah i'm living off campus next year but with a flatmate that i've only met once. my mom thought it would be a good idea to have a flatmate cause she knows i've been pretty down this semester. it's gonna be so hard trying to mask my bb all the time. in a way, i even feel sorry for her having to live with me next year. but we'll see how it goes. i may still have to spend an awful lot of time confined to my room just so i don't make her life a living hell.
I don't know how people on this forum feels about roomates vs living alone, i think you should listen to what other ppl have to say. It's a big decision to go live with a stranger, don't take it lightly. Your roomate might turn out to be a very social person who will invite people over all the time.
Hello Christy. be strong! I agree with all the good advice you been given. Now, you attend a University, why not contact their medical or scientific department and let them know about this problem and about this forum and ask them to help us find a cure or at least something that can control the bb dragon!
Actually all of you who attend a university why not send a detailed letter about our problem to all the departments where there is a possibility of help.
Actually all of you who attend a university why not send a detailed letter about our problem to all the departments where there is a possibility of help.
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Scientist42
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Christy,
I'm Arun, a pharmacist and scientist living in Essex, just outside London. I organise meetups for our UK members suffering from BB and related conditions.
Why not attend one of our meetups. We share tips and discuss what we have tried etc. Our next Meetup is near Tower Bridge, London on 12th and 13th September. As in previous years, there will be at least 10 members on both days, including 2 who are flying from America just for the meetup!
Apart from being able to chat with other sufferers you will be able to enjoy the festivities of the incredible Thames Festival 2009 which will surround us that whole weekend.
You will also build a small circle of friends with similar issues so you won't feel like you are suffering alone.
If you like, call me some evening to chat. My home phone number is 01375 484 269. Any other halitosis sufferer who is interested in attending may also call me or email me at [email protected]
Arun Nagrath
I'm Arun, a pharmacist and scientist living in Essex, just outside London. I organise meetups for our UK members suffering from BB and related conditions.
Why not attend one of our meetups. We share tips and discuss what we have tried etc. Our next Meetup is near Tower Bridge, London on 12th and 13th September. As in previous years, there will be at least 10 members on both days, including 2 who are flying from America just for the meetup!
Apart from being able to chat with other sufferers you will be able to enjoy the festivities of the incredible Thames Festival 2009 which will surround us that whole weekend.
You will also build a small circle of friends with similar issues so you won't feel like you are suffering alone.
If you like, call me some evening to chat. My home phone number is 01375 484 269. Any other halitosis sufferer who is interested in attending may also call me or email me at [email protected]
Arun Nagrath
