A story
Posted: Wed Sep 05, 2012 10:46 am
So after 6 years of having bb I met a girl. Somehow she fell in love with me even though I'd bb.
But I'd to move away and it became a long distance relationship. Everyday since I'd this problem I think of my breath, but she made me stop thinking about it.
But then about 4 months ago she stopped chatting to me, I knew something was going on and started asking... No real reply just "I'm having tons of work". It began after I got angry for her going out on a party looking like a whore (yes an actual whore). Then she just never started chatting with me and when she did it was like nothing...
6 weeks later we finally meet again, I notice right away off from her first hug that something is wrong.
one kiss and then she says... mmhm, no... no. On the bus to her place I realise I've a real bad case of bb and stop talking, then I say something to her and she looks out the window saying "omg".
She pukes after she have gotten off the bus. She's been sick since x-mas (not related to me) but this made me very sad. To see that I could trigger something like that.
The next couple of day's she keeps her distance from me and I just feel like shit, total and utter shit. She ignores me after not have been talking to me for 6 weeks. in bed she won't "allow" me to even hold her because she says it hurts.
I ask her what the ***k is going on and she just replies that she needs her space. We end up doing nothing together, no shower, she has all her clothes on in bed etc.
Then 1 day before I'll leave there is a party at her place, her roomate's friends are there. 8 guys, her and another girl. We start to drink and I see this one guy that starts to hit on my girl. I decide I want to talk to my girl about this, she just avoids me the whole time and I just feel like shit... ignored by the one I love. He keeps on flirting with her (you know talking face to each other on the sofa and shit). Afterwards people tell their age, he is 28 and my girl says:
Oh, I've dated a 30 year old, so it's no problem.
I look at her after she said it, not saying anything. but thinking of how ****ing said this ****ing is, at this point I'm just about to cry. Later on we go downtown, on the bus I come last, my girl and that guy sits together and I sit on the end of the bus. Feeling so lost, desperate, angry, sad and everything you can imagine.
At the party he buys her drinks, sits together by a table of 7. They are talking to each other. I sit by the end of the table just crushed to death. After awhile I see him touching more and I just can't ****ing take it, I give my girl glares and ask if we can talk. She ignores it.
The guy later says me: if you want that girl you should start talking to her.
This is when I realised she hasn't said that she was my girlfriend or that she was someone else's girlfriend. His eyes get bigger and he says something like... well hey ok. then I know.
He comes back to the table and starts talking with the other guys, my girlfriend also start chatting. Talking about his interest.
Then we go out, finally I think. I want to really have a ****ing talk with my girlfriend, but no. She completly ignores me and talks to that guy again. Later on we go to his place and I'm just dying for the night to end. my girlfriend sits on the opposite side of the sofa and I tell her to sit beside me. No answer, again I tell her, nothing, again... she shakes her head in a "No".
1 hour after we've gotten to this guy's place he ask me in a real mean manner "hey guy, bring me a glass of water". I give him a real ****ing killer look and says, get it yourself. Then I tell my girlfriend 7 times that we have to talk. Right ****ing now.
Outside the apartment I ask her what the ***k she is doing. She is looking at me saying... what?
I won't go into detail what we said but nothing came out of it. We decided to leave after that.
20 steps from the apartment I ask her why she is acting this way, she tells me in an angry tone: It's always trouble with you, all I do is bad. I try to tell her why and she just ignores.
Now I can't hold it back anymore. I yell FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK! ****ing HELL! and starts to cry, she looks at me in chock. I tell her everything I saw, she defends herself by saying that just the way she is and acts. Says it's always her fault for everything and that she acts in a social manner.
She won't answer why she havn't talked to me in a proper manner in 6 weeks. I try to talk her to sense on the way home, she cries alittle and I say sorry while explaining why I feel like shit.
Now we're home and she is angry as before, I sit on the bed and ask: Do you even want me in your bed? No answer again, nothing at all. I cry and says; what the hell is going on? and decides to go to the bunk bed. come back and asks once more, "I need an answer, do you or don't you want me here?" no, she says.
I can't cry, I just lay myself to sleep. The next day I have to ask her if she wants to break up. A simple yes comes out.
Guys, my life is ****ing shattered. I was treating like shit and I smell like shit. I don't want this anymore, I'm still crying and it's been more than 4 months ago. I've talked to one person about the whole story before, included my bad breath. And it just hurts that she completly ignored me to death. She helped me believe that I actully could live with bad breath but now my whole world has fallen apart and I'm left with nothing, no response from her at all. no answer, just nothing.
But I'd to move away and it became a long distance relationship. Everyday since I'd this problem I think of my breath, but she made me stop thinking about it.
But then about 4 months ago she stopped chatting to me, I knew something was going on and started asking... No real reply just "I'm having tons of work". It began after I got angry for her going out on a party looking like a whore (yes an actual whore). Then she just never started chatting with me and when she did it was like nothing...
6 weeks later we finally meet again, I notice right away off from her first hug that something is wrong.
one kiss and then she says... mmhm, no... no. On the bus to her place I realise I've a real bad case of bb and stop talking, then I say something to her and she looks out the window saying "omg".
She pukes after she have gotten off the bus. She's been sick since x-mas (not related to me) but this made me very sad. To see that I could trigger something like that.
The next couple of day's she keeps her distance from me and I just feel like shit, total and utter shit. She ignores me after not have been talking to me for 6 weeks. in bed she won't "allow" me to even hold her because she says it hurts.
I ask her what the ***k is going on and she just replies that she needs her space. We end up doing nothing together, no shower, she has all her clothes on in bed etc.
Then 1 day before I'll leave there is a party at her place, her roomate's friends are there. 8 guys, her and another girl. We start to drink and I see this one guy that starts to hit on my girl. I decide I want to talk to my girl about this, she just avoids me the whole time and I just feel like shit... ignored by the one I love. He keeps on flirting with her (you know talking face to each other on the sofa and shit). Afterwards people tell their age, he is 28 and my girl says:
Oh, I've dated a 30 year old, so it's no problem.
I look at her after she said it, not saying anything. but thinking of how ****ing said this ****ing is, at this point I'm just about to cry. Later on we go downtown, on the bus I come last, my girl and that guy sits together and I sit on the end of the bus. Feeling so lost, desperate, angry, sad and everything you can imagine.
At the party he buys her drinks, sits together by a table of 7. They are talking to each other. I sit by the end of the table just crushed to death. After awhile I see him touching more and I just can't ****ing take it, I give my girl glares and ask if we can talk. She ignores it.
The guy later says me: if you want that girl you should start talking to her.
This is when I realised she hasn't said that she was my girlfriend or that she was someone else's girlfriend. His eyes get bigger and he says something like... well hey ok. then I know.
He comes back to the table and starts talking with the other guys, my girlfriend also start chatting. Talking about his interest.
Then we go out, finally I think. I want to really have a ****ing talk with my girlfriend, but no. She completly ignores me and talks to that guy again. Later on we go to his place and I'm just dying for the night to end. my girlfriend sits on the opposite side of the sofa and I tell her to sit beside me. No answer, again I tell her, nothing, again... she shakes her head in a "No".
1 hour after we've gotten to this guy's place he ask me in a real mean manner "hey guy, bring me a glass of water". I give him a real ****ing killer look and says, get it yourself. Then I tell my girlfriend 7 times that we have to talk. Right ****ing now.
Outside the apartment I ask her what the ***k she is doing. She is looking at me saying... what?
I won't go into detail what we said but nothing came out of it. We decided to leave after that.
20 steps from the apartment I ask her why she is acting this way, she tells me in an angry tone: It's always trouble with you, all I do is bad. I try to tell her why and she just ignores.
Now I can't hold it back anymore. I yell FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK! ****ing HELL! and starts to cry, she looks at me in chock. I tell her everything I saw, she defends herself by saying that just the way she is and acts. Says it's always her fault for everything and that she acts in a social manner.
She won't answer why she havn't talked to me in a proper manner in 6 weeks. I try to talk her to sense on the way home, she cries alittle and I say sorry while explaining why I feel like shit.
Now we're home and she is angry as before, I sit on the bed and ask: Do you even want me in your bed? No answer again, nothing at all. I cry and says; what the hell is going on? and decides to go to the bunk bed. come back and asks once more, "I need an answer, do you or don't you want me here?" no, she says.
I can't cry, I just lay myself to sleep. The next day I have to ask her if she wants to break up. A simple yes comes out.
Guys, my life is ****ing shattered. I was treating like shit and I smell like shit. I don't want this anymore, I'm still crying and it's been more than 4 months ago. I've talked to one person about the whole story before, included my bad breath. And it just hurts that she completly ignored me to death. She helped me believe that I actully could live with bad breath but now my whole world has fallen apart and I'm left with nothing, no response from her at all. no answer, just nothing.