Bad Breath has given me new perspective.
Posted: Thu Nov 01, 2012 5:03 pm
Back before all this started I used to worry about the stupidest things.
Now when my breath is back to normal I am 100% certain I will be the most confident I will have ever been. I've always been shy in nature but still have got good friends and had girlfriends in the past.
I used to avoid contact with people as I was shy and I could never start conversations or talk to people. But now this has been stripped from me I want to be that loud guy who can sit amongst people and relax again.
So when I do get cured this breath will not only have gone but in a funny way will have socially saved me. I never thought I'd miss human contact so much, just to be close to someone and talking freely without sweating or trying not blast air directly in their faces. Although I do not think my breath is heavily offensive, noone reacts to me. I guess I have breath that doesn't blast you straight up but lingers causing people to comment that I should wipe my ass..... lol
once my tonsils are out and my sinus issues are sorted. I am gonna live my life to the full. my ENT and doc seem to think I have chronic rhino-sinusitis which I've read does cause odor in the sinuses.
I know it sounds crazy I used to worry so much about stupid things but since this breath took over I stopped caring about small things that don't matter.
There are people on this earth who have worse situations than us always. I am thankful for my life and that I have no illnesses apart from this.
I was recently looking at photos from past times and thinking back on times I had fun bb free, a warm feeling came across and I can't wait to be back on the good times. Simple things like just going for some food and drink are hell. The notion of not stinking is foreign to me atm. Let's hope my ENT trips save me for good.
To my original point, when I'm cured I'm gonna be mr confident I know it.
People these past months at work have been constantly saying "you've not been yourself for a while" "why are you so down?" "why are you depressed?" Before this all happened I was kind of the work clown, It's funny because I could be loud and jokey infront of crowds but one to one with people I was a social wreck lol Now people wonder why I don't smile or do silly things anymore.
It's hard when people ask if you've farted or say you should shower or wipe your ass.
I cannot wait to going back to being the old me.
One day a colleague popped some gum and started chewing whilst saying "ahhhh minty fresh"... don't know whether he was bullying me or just trying to warn me somehow. I remember one day before I discovered this mess that was my breath I was stood at a computer and I farted, I actually said "I just farted" a colleague looked at and said "i know i can smell you"...
at first I Lolled cos I did fart. later on in the day I'm sat at my desk, guy to the right is squirming in his seat, I ask whats up he's like "you're a dirty bastard" then turns on his fan. I was sat puzzled because I hadn't farted..
I was breathing through my nose.....
I thought nothing of it I just carried on for a few weeks.
Then another day I'm sat there just chilling working, a colleague comes in.... bad look on his face
"you should get a shower smells like you haven't wiped your ass in 4 days"
I was sat mortified like WTF are you talking about.
Went to a canteen I sat down and exhaled heavily through my nose as I sat down, he went to sit down but moved away and said "smells like you haven't wiped your ass in 4 days".
This is when it all began, the era of being socially crippled.
A few weeks ago I was breathing through my nose to test it.
low and behold Ii was told to stop farting.
lol my story went off, needed to vent also.
The first time I discovered tonsil stones Ii was mortified they smelled like feces and I was just in disbelief.....
I wish I had went to an ENT doctor sooner. This has psychologically damaged me..
but anyways I hope to be mr confident in the future....
Now when my breath is back to normal I am 100% certain I will be the most confident I will have ever been. I've always been shy in nature but still have got good friends and had girlfriends in the past.
I used to avoid contact with people as I was shy and I could never start conversations or talk to people. But now this has been stripped from me I want to be that loud guy who can sit amongst people and relax again.
So when I do get cured this breath will not only have gone but in a funny way will have socially saved me. I never thought I'd miss human contact so much, just to be close to someone and talking freely without sweating or trying not blast air directly in their faces. Although I do not think my breath is heavily offensive, noone reacts to me. I guess I have breath that doesn't blast you straight up but lingers causing people to comment that I should wipe my ass..... lol
once my tonsils are out and my sinus issues are sorted. I am gonna live my life to the full. my ENT and doc seem to think I have chronic rhino-sinusitis which I've read does cause odor in the sinuses.
I know it sounds crazy I used to worry so much about stupid things but since this breath took over I stopped caring about small things that don't matter.
There are people on this earth who have worse situations than us always. I am thankful for my life and that I have no illnesses apart from this.
I was recently looking at photos from past times and thinking back on times I had fun bb free, a warm feeling came across and I can't wait to be back on the good times. Simple things like just going for some food and drink are hell. The notion of not stinking is foreign to me atm. Let's hope my ENT trips save me for good.
To my original point, when I'm cured I'm gonna be mr confident I know it.
People these past months at work have been constantly saying "you've not been yourself for a while" "why are you so down?" "why are you depressed?" Before this all happened I was kind of the work clown, It's funny because I could be loud and jokey infront of crowds but one to one with people I was a social wreck lol Now people wonder why I don't smile or do silly things anymore.
It's hard when people ask if you've farted or say you should shower or wipe your ass.
I cannot wait to going back to being the old me.
One day a colleague popped some gum and started chewing whilst saying "ahhhh minty fresh"... don't know whether he was bullying me or just trying to warn me somehow. I remember one day before I discovered this mess that was my breath I was stood at a computer and I farted, I actually said "I just farted" a colleague looked at and said "i know i can smell you"...
at first I Lolled cos I did fart. later on in the day I'm sat at my desk, guy to the right is squirming in his seat, I ask whats up he's like "you're a dirty bastard" then turns on his fan. I was sat puzzled because I hadn't farted..
I was breathing through my nose.....
I thought nothing of it I just carried on for a few weeks.
Then another day I'm sat there just chilling working, a colleague comes in.... bad look on his face
"you should get a shower smells like you haven't wiped your ass in 4 days"
I was sat mortified like WTF are you talking about.
Went to a canteen I sat down and exhaled heavily through my nose as I sat down, he went to sit down but moved away and said "smells like you haven't wiped your ass in 4 days".
This is when it all began, the era of being socially crippled.
A few weeks ago I was breathing through my nose to test it.
low and behold Ii was told to stop farting.
lol my story went off, needed to vent also.
The first time I discovered tonsil stones Ii was mortified they smelled like feces and I was just in disbelief.....
I wish I had went to an ENT doctor sooner. This has psychologically damaged me..
but anyways I hope to be mr confident in the future....