This bb curse hit me even harder these last two weeks as I'm starting to think, what if its some permanent disease caused by some kind of genetic malfunction? What if I will have it for my whole life? It already ruined my teen years, I don't plan living with this thing forever.
I'm slowly running out of patience. There has been a period where I kind of accepted this problem and tried to live with, but that was back then when I didn't realize how much it interfered with my life.
The net doesn't really help either, all I learned so far is that the human body is not nearly as good in "protecting itself from harmful organisms and stabilizing any imbalances" as the books and the teachers were touting over the years in biology back in school. Instead its a crippled system full of imperfections that loses its balance very easily and is prone to a trillion not-so-rare-as-you-think diseases that makes you feel lucky for not having one of them. Autoimmune digestive and respiratory diseases, a billion of different bacterial infections, genetic problems etc all part of a huge chain reaction that you can't find the beginning of with the latest link being BAD BREATH and other things that alter your lifestyle.
I should have started this with "Dear Diary..."
