Drala wrote:Hello.
I think I'm really suffering from halitosfobia.
People have nevered said anything about my breath, they've never offered me gum etc. And I always speak close to them. Sounds good doesnt it? Still I think my breath smells, its weird. I've asked like 5 friends and they said "Are you serious? No." like that. And also my family members each day and they say they can only feel a good breath.
So what shall I do? To avoid these stupid thoughts?
I have a similar issue. No one told me about bad breath in years after I cured two pulpites (or even worse), which were severely decayed teeth that secreted pus, about 10 years ago. I had been so afraid of visiting a dentist that I preferred to live with bad breath, even though I knew I had bb (from different comments).
After that I also started buying an oxygen paste & rinse on a regular basis, because I hadn't still been confident in my breath. And after that, it seems I did become confident, I had several girlfriends, went places and so on. And yet, I developed such a reflex that I almost never spoke directly in one's face, which was making people wondering why I prefer to speak to them in such a manner like I was speaking to someone else sideways to them.
Now, I developed some caries on a tooth or even two, and suddenly became so obsessed about my bb (like a couple of days ago), that even my fear of dentists has gone away. I think it's connected to my past memory of association of bb comments and decaying teeth. I also seem to have some dental deposits on my back teeth because I had been so afraid of cleaning them properly as to not to tear away my fillings (due to fear of dentists), which I need to get rid of as soon as possible.
I've booked appointments with two dentists (to make sure I get there ASAP) for a checkup. To restore my confidence, I need to:
1. Treat my caries, which I don't think to be much afraid of anymore;
2. Do professional cleansing of my mouth;
3. Ask a dentist to evaluate my breath with a halitometer;
4. Keep using tongue cleaner and non-alcohol rinse.
I can't list 7 reasons for why I think I may have bb. I can't even say if I do have. But my fear of having it has impacted my life to a certain degree. And I'm going to deal with this issue as soon as I can. I don't actually understand why I haven't been visiting dentists for regular checkups and cleanings, and why I became so conscious so suddenly. Maybe that's due to my exercises on improving self-love.
But I can confidently say that my fear of the possibility of having a bb is coming from my childhood, like some other serious issues that I've had with my perception of the world.
I spoke with a friend of mine (she's a female) today to ask for a recommendation of a dentist, and I told her how obsessed about caries (I didn't say anything about bb) I recently became, that I was learning about the issue of caries till 5:30 am last night. But she laughed and said that I need a psychiatrist, not a dentist. I also met with a psychologist (regarding other issues) today, and told him about my obsession about caries (decaying teeth), and he didn't say anything about bb, but I kept talking with him directing my face at somewhere else...
Whether I have bb or not, the concern about it has made an impact on my confidence. And I need to deal with it ASAP.
I need to add that I pay very close attention to any possible signs of other people's possible sensing of my possible bb. Such as that I notice:
1. People reclining on the backs of their chairs sometimes. (Looks like they're trying to distance themselves from me).
2. People touching their noses.
3. People putting their fingers under their noses sometimes.
4. People stepping back sometimes.
5. Wrapping up conversations (on a few occasions, I saw that).
I have met with another psychotherapist a while ago, and he came close and told me straight something like this: "Don't you think that people might be puzzled about your speaking in a manner like ... (and showed my speaking behaviour like speaking to someone invisible sideways).
Okay, that's really something that finally needs my attention. I seem to be becoming conscious of my health more and more.
Needless to say I'm an anxious, shy and sensitive personality type. But this sudden anxiety has really preoccupied my mind. I hope not for long though...