first time venting frustration
Posted: Mon Jan 05, 2009 4:11 pm
hi all,
i can't believe i'm actually doing this. this is the first time i've ever been open and admitted to people that i have bb. i am a 30 yr old woman who has been dealing with this since grade school. the first clear memory i have is when i was about 12 in middle school. i was talking to a group of friends in the cafeteria and my best friend at the time as like "ooh-did somebody fart?" from there it's just been comments from friends that may be funny to them, but only hurtful and embarrasing to me. i've had someone text me and say i need you to call me back at this number. and when i called the number, it was one of those rejection lines except it was one for bad breath. i'm sure he thought it was hilarious, but i was depressed about it for days. i've seen him since then, but we both pretend like nothing happened. i've tried some things like special toothpastes, gums, mints, even chlorophyll capsules. i don't think anything has really helped. sometimes when i'm in a social situation and i don't see anyway backing away or making a face, i think it's ok. but then someone offers me a mint or a piece of gum and i get depressed all over again.
i've had different family members say things. like my mom will say "you should drink plenty of water," or once while driving with my dad in the car-he kept offering me mint after mint until i just stopped talking to him. it was so mortifying. once in high school i was talking to this guy that i really liked. i was trying to tell a story about another girl. he didn't know who i was talking about so i was trying to describe her. then he just said really loudly "does her breath smell like shit?!?" i didn't even get it until years later. it makes me wanna cry when i think about all the comments and depression i've been through because of bb. i'm a really funny, attractive person who would otherwise be very sociable. when people ask now why i'm so quiet and don't say much. i just shrug or laugh it off. if they only knew the truth. i try to shield people from having to deal with my bb. i feel sorry for my husband. he is really sweet. and i don't think he'll ever just come out and tell me. i've been trying probiotics and hcl acid for digestive help. i really thought it was helping. but one day my husband and i were at this place and there was a bowl of mints. i whispered something to him and he just reached over into the bowl and handed me one. the other night he reminded me to bring me toothbrush on our quick getaway-yet he didn't pack his own.
to sit here and list all the things people have said to me over the years would take days. besides i'm sure everyone here has been through the same thing. the weird part is that i can never smell my own breath. so it's bad because i don't know when i'm offending people. of course until they make a face or offer me gum or a mint. i really doubt that the problem is in my mouth. i know that i have digestive issues and i stay constipated. so i'm looking for ways to help with that. if anyone can suggest something other than what i have already tried that would be great.
i just wanna get back to being sociable and not have to worry about kissing my husband or being intimate with him. i want to not have to turn my head in the other direction when i talk to people so they don't catch a whiff of the stench. i want to feel confident about talking to people and making friends. i want to not spend my life obsessing about it and wondering if other people smell it cause i know they do. i want to stop having depression and social anxiety because of it. anyway, thanks for providing a forum for me to vent and here's to finding a cure.
i can't believe i'm actually doing this. this is the first time i've ever been open and admitted to people that i have bb. i am a 30 yr old woman who has been dealing with this since grade school. the first clear memory i have is when i was about 12 in middle school. i was talking to a group of friends in the cafeteria and my best friend at the time as like "ooh-did somebody fart?" from there it's just been comments from friends that may be funny to them, but only hurtful and embarrasing to me. i've had someone text me and say i need you to call me back at this number. and when i called the number, it was one of those rejection lines except it was one for bad breath. i'm sure he thought it was hilarious, but i was depressed about it for days. i've seen him since then, but we both pretend like nothing happened. i've tried some things like special toothpastes, gums, mints, even chlorophyll capsules. i don't think anything has really helped. sometimes when i'm in a social situation and i don't see anyway backing away or making a face, i think it's ok. but then someone offers me a mint or a piece of gum and i get depressed all over again.
i've had different family members say things. like my mom will say "you should drink plenty of water," or once while driving with my dad in the car-he kept offering me mint after mint until i just stopped talking to him. it was so mortifying. once in high school i was talking to this guy that i really liked. i was trying to tell a story about another girl. he didn't know who i was talking about so i was trying to describe her. then he just said really loudly "does her breath smell like shit?!?" i didn't even get it until years later. it makes me wanna cry when i think about all the comments and depression i've been through because of bb. i'm a really funny, attractive person who would otherwise be very sociable. when people ask now why i'm so quiet and don't say much. i just shrug or laugh it off. if they only knew the truth. i try to shield people from having to deal with my bb. i feel sorry for my husband. he is really sweet. and i don't think he'll ever just come out and tell me. i've been trying probiotics and hcl acid for digestive help. i really thought it was helping. but one day my husband and i were at this place and there was a bowl of mints. i whispered something to him and he just reached over into the bowl and handed me one. the other night he reminded me to bring me toothbrush on our quick getaway-yet he didn't pack his own.
to sit here and list all the things people have said to me over the years would take days. besides i'm sure everyone here has been through the same thing. the weird part is that i can never smell my own breath. so it's bad because i don't know when i'm offending people. of course until they make a face or offer me gum or a mint. i really doubt that the problem is in my mouth. i know that i have digestive issues and i stay constipated. so i'm looking for ways to help with that. if anyone can suggest something other than what i have already tried that would be great.
i just wanna get back to being sociable and not have to worry about kissing my husband or being intimate with him. i want to not have to turn my head in the other direction when i talk to people so they don't catch a whiff of the stench. i want to feel confident about talking to people and making friends. i want to not spend my life obsessing about it and wondering if other people smell it cause i know they do. i want to stop having depression and social anxiety because of it. anyway, thanks for providing a forum for me to vent and here's to finding a cure.