I beg you, please read my story ..
Posted: Thu Oct 20, 2011 2:34 am
Hi all,
First I want to say that I just discovered this site in the last week or so, just joined, and I am so grateful for having found it. This is my first post. As other members on here, I’m living my so-called life, in torment because of bb. It has drained the life inside of me, and I don’t believe that I’ll ever see the day when I feel whole again. I’m weeping as I write this…only you can understand the pain this causes. This seems to be the most debilitating “handicap” one can be cursed with, and what’s even worse, is that there is no understanding or sympathy or even acknowledgement that this is a real problem with debilitating consequences.
I beg you guys to keep reading my story, as it is a little different from others on here, in terms of causes of bb.
For me it started 9 years ago. I contracted hepatitis B (I’m sure you know what it is, but just in case..it is a virus that attacks the liver, most people will get rid of the virus on their own), but my body was not able to clear it, and I became a chronic carrier, meaning I still have it and it is not possible to be cured. Chances are remote of ever being Hep B free. My bb started exactly the week I contracted hep B. I started having pain right were the liver is located, along with a dry mouth and bb. I curse the day I got this infection, but there is no going back to that day in my life now. I maintain a healthy life style, I eat right, excercise and if you saw me, you'd never guess what i go through internally.
The medical community, and the research I’ve done does not show a link between the two, however this is what happened to me, and I’m sure you understand how impossible it is to convince the doctor that even though my liver tests come out ok(meaning there is little to no inflammation), I experience pain in the liver area, and have bb, along with coated tongue. The bb has gotten worse at times, and better at other times, but it never ever goes away completely.
I’m not gonna go into detail about the sadness, pain, anxiety and depression this has caused me, as I know you understand exactly what each of us has experienced. The hepatitis itself seems like nothing compared to the torment bb gives me. If I could get rid of bb, I wouldn’t worry so much about the hep b, even if it killed me in a few years. God, if I could live even 5 years of my life without the consciousness of bb, I would gladly give up the rest of my life. I know the bb is related to the inflammation in the liver, but I just don’t’ know what to do about it. My logic tells me that as long as I have hep b, and the liver is inflamed, I will never be able to get rid of my bb.
I tried a candida diet a while ago, which a holistic doctor suggested me, while trying to convince me that the hep b/liver have nothing to do with the “bad taste in the mouth”. The anticandida diet seemed to help a little, but never got rid of it completely.. God, I am in such pain and so weak…I never had the courage to talk to the GI doctor I see for hep B, about the BB problem directly until today. I’ve always mentioned the pain I experience all the time, and I’ve said things like “bad taste” in the mouth, and dry tongue, but until today, I didn’t have the courage to mention the term “bb”. I started crying in his office..and although he seemed to be trying to help, I don’t have a lot of hope, as he immediately ruled out the liver as the cause. He ordered a stool test of H.plyroi, and after getting the results of that will do a celiac disease test, but I am not hopeful at all.
I have to mention that I’m pretty sure I’m lactose intoleant (or became in the years after contracting hep b) so I avoid milk, but have still eaten other dairy products. Doc said you’ll try a completely dairy free diet if the H. plyori test comes back negative.
The reason I know my bb is related to the hep b/liver inflammation is that when my virus dna was elevated last year, my bb become worse. I am taking a pill to keep the virus under control now, and though tests show that it is almost undetected, the liver damage has been done and I know that’s what causing the bb and coated tongue.
I tried a liver flush once, I did feel a little better, but the bb never went away completely.
I have suffered for 9 years, I have a job where I interact with a lot of people(consulting) , and have to constantly make a good impression on people I work with, and you can imagine how draining that is..i am soo tired of everything. I turn down offers from my friends to go out because I’m worried of my bb, I feel like curling up and dying when morning comes, and I have to go to work or even just be around people..
Please, I beg you, if you have any suggestions on how to cure or treat bb that is caused by an inflamed liver, please share it with me, I feel I can rely on your advice more than my doc’s advice, since he doesn’t get it and is simply trained to only believe that since it is not proven that liver inflammation caused by hep b can cause bb, that it cannot be the source.
Sorry for the long post….i have come to a point where I come home from work , curl in bed and cry , wishing I was dead..(I know how weak that is) but this is what bb has reduced me to. I can’t even concentrate at work, cause all I think about is my bb, and I’ve become obsessed reading the posts in this site, where I feel like is the only place and people who really get it..i would be so grateful for any suggestions any of you might have for me. I understand exaclty what each one is going though, and a little support would really help me, as I get into a very dark place, with nothing but dark thoughts of ending life..because i see no escape from this torture.
First I want to say that I just discovered this site in the last week or so, just joined, and I am so grateful for having found it. This is my first post. As other members on here, I’m living my so-called life, in torment because of bb. It has drained the life inside of me, and I don’t believe that I’ll ever see the day when I feel whole again. I’m weeping as I write this…only you can understand the pain this causes. This seems to be the most debilitating “handicap” one can be cursed with, and what’s even worse, is that there is no understanding or sympathy or even acknowledgement that this is a real problem with debilitating consequences.
I beg you guys to keep reading my story, as it is a little different from others on here, in terms of causes of bb.
For me it started 9 years ago. I contracted hepatitis B (I’m sure you know what it is, but just in case..it is a virus that attacks the liver, most people will get rid of the virus on their own), but my body was not able to clear it, and I became a chronic carrier, meaning I still have it and it is not possible to be cured. Chances are remote of ever being Hep B free. My bb started exactly the week I contracted hep B. I started having pain right were the liver is located, along with a dry mouth and bb. I curse the day I got this infection, but there is no going back to that day in my life now. I maintain a healthy life style, I eat right, excercise and if you saw me, you'd never guess what i go through internally.
The medical community, and the research I’ve done does not show a link between the two, however this is what happened to me, and I’m sure you understand how impossible it is to convince the doctor that even though my liver tests come out ok(meaning there is little to no inflammation), I experience pain in the liver area, and have bb, along with coated tongue. The bb has gotten worse at times, and better at other times, but it never ever goes away completely.
I’m not gonna go into detail about the sadness, pain, anxiety and depression this has caused me, as I know you understand exactly what each of us has experienced. The hepatitis itself seems like nothing compared to the torment bb gives me. If I could get rid of bb, I wouldn’t worry so much about the hep b, even if it killed me in a few years. God, if I could live even 5 years of my life without the consciousness of bb, I would gladly give up the rest of my life. I know the bb is related to the inflammation in the liver, but I just don’t’ know what to do about it. My logic tells me that as long as I have hep b, and the liver is inflamed, I will never be able to get rid of my bb.
I tried a candida diet a while ago, which a holistic doctor suggested me, while trying to convince me that the hep b/liver have nothing to do with the “bad taste in the mouth”. The anticandida diet seemed to help a little, but never got rid of it completely.. God, I am in such pain and so weak…I never had the courage to talk to the GI doctor I see for hep B, about the BB problem directly until today. I’ve always mentioned the pain I experience all the time, and I’ve said things like “bad taste” in the mouth, and dry tongue, but until today, I didn’t have the courage to mention the term “bb”. I started crying in his office..and although he seemed to be trying to help, I don’t have a lot of hope, as he immediately ruled out the liver as the cause. He ordered a stool test of H.plyroi, and after getting the results of that will do a celiac disease test, but I am not hopeful at all.
I have to mention that I’m pretty sure I’m lactose intoleant (or became in the years after contracting hep b) so I avoid milk, but have still eaten other dairy products. Doc said you’ll try a completely dairy free diet if the H. plyori test comes back negative.
The reason I know my bb is related to the hep b/liver inflammation is that when my virus dna was elevated last year, my bb become worse. I am taking a pill to keep the virus under control now, and though tests show that it is almost undetected, the liver damage has been done and I know that’s what causing the bb and coated tongue.
I tried a liver flush once, I did feel a little better, but the bb never went away completely.
I have suffered for 9 years, I have a job where I interact with a lot of people(consulting) , and have to constantly make a good impression on people I work with, and you can imagine how draining that is..i am soo tired of everything. I turn down offers from my friends to go out because I’m worried of my bb, I feel like curling up and dying when morning comes, and I have to go to work or even just be around people..
Please, I beg you, if you have any suggestions on how to cure or treat bb that is caused by an inflamed liver, please share it with me, I feel I can rely on your advice more than my doc’s advice, since he doesn’t get it and is simply trained to only believe that since it is not proven that liver inflammation caused by hep b can cause bb, that it cannot be the source.
Sorry for the long post….i have come to a point where I come home from work , curl in bed and cry , wishing I was dead..(I know how weak that is) but this is what bb has reduced me to. I can’t even concentrate at work, cause all I think about is my bb, and I’ve become obsessed reading the posts in this site, where I feel like is the only place and people who really get it..i would be so grateful for any suggestions any of you might have for me. I understand exaclty what each one is going though, and a little support would really help me, as I get into a very dark place, with nothing but dark thoughts of ending life..because i see no escape from this torture.