My life, my story
Posted: Fri Jun 01, 2007 9:31 pm
just wanted to share some experience i had with you guys..
my first bad experience with bb was when i was about 5 or 6 years old i remember my cousin and i where arguing about stuff and we started calling each other names so he said that i stink and i said to him back "no you stink!" so he said let's bet who breath smells better.. so my other cousin smell his and when she was about to smell mines i just open my mouth but didn't exhale. she said exhale and i said "i am doing it!, can't you smell it?" she never got to smell because i wouldn't let her do it the right way. after that day everything went down the drain.
before that time i don't remember myself having bad breath and after that time i started worrying about my BB a whole lot.
when i was around age 7 i had my first sex experience (yea very young). the girlwanted to kiss me but i said i don't like kissing, she insisted and insisted but i didn't wanted to do it because of the bb, so i just gave up and ate a candy and kiss her. tasted horrible for me, but she didn't say nothing and we continue doing *rated stuff*.
at around 12yrs old i was a wild beast, doing bad kid stuff and didn't pay attention to my bb, so does where the happy years for me.
when i got in high school everything went down the drain. i think i was 14-15yrs old. in freshman years i became more aware of my bb, i hardly talk in class because of it, i ate gum all the time trying to kill it, i drank water like a camel and all of that.. i didn't have that many friends until my sophomore year..
in my sophomore year i meet a lot of people, including a girl i really like a lot.. we talk and talk all the time, one day i saw her walking down the steps and when i was about to kiss her in the cheeks, i think i miss by a few inches and kiss her near the lips. so she says to me "why don't you finish kissing me?" i stared at her for a sec wanting to but through my mind it cross me again my BB. so i didn't say nothing and i walked away.
we still talked going on into my junior year we even argue because she ask "me why do you call me so much?" and it slip out my mouth and said " because i want to hear your voice." so she said "so do you like me?" so we talk and argue but i never came around to say it and she said she doesn't want to talk to me again. i was devasted for like a whole week, i even miss a few days of school. i didn't want her or nobody to know about my BB. Prom day came around and i miss the prom because of BB, i didn't want to get near nobody like that because i knew the person i was going with where going to smell me since i had to get close to dance and all of that. (one of the biggest regret in my life so far).
so senior year came and before i knew it i was out of highschool. college i went to for 2 years was the same as my senior year BB hunted me all day everyday and i was out.
2 years later here i am... shy kinda because i can't let lose around people, at my job selling houses, my only friends left are the few people from highschool..
i worry that i'm getting older and have lots of regrets, my childhood pass me by in a flash, and the days don't seem to go any slower.i want to go out, i want to dance, i want to party!! i want to socialize without worrying about bb, i want to go crazy!!! i am a beast in a cage waiting for someone to set me loose..
did you know that nobody in my family knows about my BB? never smelled it and they think im going to the doctors because of soar throat problem and not BB, i am 23yrs old and had it since i was 5yrs old. that's my story.
my first bad experience with bb was when i was about 5 or 6 years old i remember my cousin and i where arguing about stuff and we started calling each other names so he said that i stink and i said to him back "no you stink!" so he said let's bet who breath smells better.. so my other cousin smell his and when she was about to smell mines i just open my mouth but didn't exhale. she said exhale and i said "i am doing it!, can't you smell it?" she never got to smell because i wouldn't let her do it the right way. after that day everything went down the drain.
before that time i don't remember myself having bad breath and after that time i started worrying about my BB a whole lot.
when i was around age 7 i had my first sex experience (yea very young). the girlwanted to kiss me but i said i don't like kissing, she insisted and insisted but i didn't wanted to do it because of the bb, so i just gave up and ate a candy and kiss her. tasted horrible for me, but she didn't say nothing and we continue doing *rated stuff*.
at around 12yrs old i was a wild beast, doing bad kid stuff and didn't pay attention to my bb, so does where the happy years for me.
when i got in high school everything went down the drain. i think i was 14-15yrs old. in freshman years i became more aware of my bb, i hardly talk in class because of it, i ate gum all the time trying to kill it, i drank water like a camel and all of that.. i didn't have that many friends until my sophomore year..
in my sophomore year i meet a lot of people, including a girl i really like a lot.. we talk and talk all the time, one day i saw her walking down the steps and when i was about to kiss her in the cheeks, i think i miss by a few inches and kiss her near the lips. so she says to me "why don't you finish kissing me?" i stared at her for a sec wanting to but through my mind it cross me again my BB. so i didn't say nothing and i walked away.
we still talked going on into my junior year we even argue because she ask "me why do you call me so much?" and it slip out my mouth and said " because i want to hear your voice." so she said "so do you like me?" so we talk and argue but i never came around to say it and she said she doesn't want to talk to me again. i was devasted for like a whole week, i even miss a few days of school. i didn't want her or nobody to know about my BB. Prom day came around and i miss the prom because of BB, i didn't want to get near nobody like that because i knew the person i was going with where going to smell me since i had to get close to dance and all of that. (one of the biggest regret in my life so far).
so senior year came and before i knew it i was out of highschool. college i went to for 2 years was the same as my senior year BB hunted me all day everyday and i was out.
2 years later here i am... shy kinda because i can't let lose around people, at my job selling houses, my only friends left are the few people from highschool..
i worry that i'm getting older and have lots of regrets, my childhood pass me by in a flash, and the days don't seem to go any slower.i want to go out, i want to dance, i want to party!! i want to socialize without worrying about bb, i want to go crazy!!! i am a beast in a cage waiting for someone to set me loose..
did you know that nobody in my family knows about my BB? never smelled it and they think im going to the doctors because of soar throat problem and not BB, i am 23yrs old and had it since i was 5yrs old. that's my story.