I think my last post was about getting a tonsillectomy (I was in my junior year of college at this point), and I actually had the tonsillectomy done the summer after my junior year and found out that my tonsils were the culprit of my BB. I know many people get rid of BB and feel free and they’re able to be themselves again and enjoy life, but it’s easier said than done at least for me. Having BB for so long (in my case 11 years and during the most fundamental stages of life) and having it completely wreck my social life left me self-conscious and socially anxious. I don’t think I will ever be completely who I was prior to having BB. Once I had the tonsillectomy and everything healed, I was still self-conscious even though my breath didn’t stink. I still spoke behind my hand and remained really apprehensive and socially phobic. As time pressed on, things have gotten tremendously better. Prior to having BB or at least before having it really begin to affect me and my life, I was very outgoing and had many friends. Now, I’m an introvert. I have no problem socializing (don’t like small talk much), but after some time I just have to be alone. I think this is a result of having bad breath. And I still wonder every day of my life “what if it comes back”?
My senior year of college, I worked as a data entry clerk which required minimal talking, as I still suffered from social anxiety even though I didn’t have BB anymore, where I was on a computer typing 95% of the time, so I went to school full-time and worked part-time as a data entry clerk. I also did an accounting internship a few months before graduating to get some experience under my belt, which I didn’t even consider doing when I had BB, and another internship (12 weeks) at a large regional bank in the summer after graduating. Right after, I accepted a job as an auditor at a firm and I’m currently studying for the CPA exam.
I’ve been engaged for 2 months to my boyfriend (first boyfriend) of 14 months. He proposed on our one year anniversary in October. This is going to sound weird, but we actually met at a gym. He knows that I once suffered from chronic bad breath, although I met him over a year after having the tonsillectomy. I told him everything about it. My struggles with it, my depression, social anxiety, s*****e attempt, and about this website, which I feel really helped me stay sane and not give in and also was the reason I decided to give the tonsillectomy a try.
I’m genuinely hoping everyone else here finds a cure and that this forum brings you sanity and hope like it did for me. There was one particularly user named Mike (SpongeBob avatar), who I felt really helped me and gave me hope. He was the nicest and most genuine person I connected with on here. I never knew what became of him; he just stopped posting. I don’t know if he found a cure, passed away, gave up, or decided to simply live with his situation. That’s something I’ll probably never know. I was actually thinking about that the other day and it reminded to do an update, just in case others may have wondered about me as I've wondered about Mike. So I’m here to tell you all that I am alive, I don’t have BB anymore, and hoping with everything in me that you all will one day find your cure and not have to deal with it anymore. Good luck and Merry Christmas
