obssessing over breath and other health issues
Posted: Tue Feb 20, 2007 5:38 am
i've been posting on this site and obssessing about my health issues in general a lot lately. it's gotten to the point that it's pretty much all i do at home. go online and look up supplements, health forums, and this site to find what could help me.
i know that it's something that i'll have to spend the time in helping myself. to do research, to learn. after all, i AM learning how to take care of my body after doing damage to it all these years.
however, i don't think the obssessing is a good idea. i was thinking maybe i should shoot for not doing it so much. limiting myself to only a certain amount of time a day to think about this. after all, all the reading overwhelms me so much sometimes, and there's only so much one can do/experiemnt at any given time.
lots of us have talked about acceptance. i think one of the reasons i go around buying tons of supplements and stuff to help myself, then giving up the trial in 3 days, leaving my pantry full of bottles of pills - is that i haven't accepted myself as someone with my health problems, especially bad breath. and so i look for things that would instantly "cure" me in a day or two and can't stick with anything. because then the trial of any product would become the "me" that's unacceptable, it would be tainted with the fact that i have bb, which i in some ways still can't accept.
so i move on to another product so i can in a way "forget" that i have bb, with the false hope/denial that this next product will erase this self with bb.
and the cycle goes on.
but if i truly accept myself, i probably won't need to run from one product tot he next in frantic denial. and maybe i can actually spend my time on my life, on living, rather than only on the possibility of living if only i didn't have bb.
my goal has been to share with someone in my life my bb problem, and still have yet to do it. a smaller goal would be to maybe spend a little less time online researching about this. don't know if i can do it, but i'll try. after all, i've always been a bit addicted to net surfing and stuff like this...
well, just wanted to get this off my chest.
i know that it's something that i'll have to spend the time in helping myself. to do research, to learn. after all, i AM learning how to take care of my body after doing damage to it all these years.
however, i don't think the obssessing is a good idea. i was thinking maybe i should shoot for not doing it so much. limiting myself to only a certain amount of time a day to think about this. after all, all the reading overwhelms me so much sometimes, and there's only so much one can do/experiemnt at any given time.
lots of us have talked about acceptance. i think one of the reasons i go around buying tons of supplements and stuff to help myself, then giving up the trial in 3 days, leaving my pantry full of bottles of pills - is that i haven't accepted myself as someone with my health problems, especially bad breath. and so i look for things that would instantly "cure" me in a day or two and can't stick with anything. because then the trial of any product would become the "me" that's unacceptable, it would be tainted with the fact that i have bb, which i in some ways still can't accept.
so i move on to another product so i can in a way "forget" that i have bb, with the false hope/denial that this next product will erase this self with bb.
and the cycle goes on.
but if i truly accept myself, i probably won't need to run from one product tot he next in frantic denial. and maybe i can actually spend my time on my life, on living, rather than only on the possibility of living if only i didn't have bb.
my goal has been to share with someone in my life my bb problem, and still have yet to do it. a smaller goal would be to maybe spend a little less time online researching about this. don't know if i can do it, but i'll try. after all, i've always been a bit addicted to net surfing and stuff like this...
well, just wanted to get this off my chest.